no one will ever understand the deep fucking connection I have with this film
For real though
I feel you guys on that this film…. The crazy girl…. Yeah…
i cant deal with the headaches
the feeling of getting hit by semi truck after semi truck. the shaking feeling the numbness the isolation.
i just want to be with you.
everyday just to look at you and smile
i love you. you make my heart beat faster as if i did ten thousand
laps around an ice rink.
can i hold you?
when we do meet and trust me we will very soon my love i have the highest intentions of holding you tightly whispering the sweetest things i could possibly think of and just cry of
happiness to realize im home and im here to stay.
Becuase you call me fat.
I puke untill i feel the need to pass out. And i dont eat. For several days.
You call me retared.
I smoke weed till im chilling with bob and kurt coboain.
You call me ugly.
I snort xanax bars and pop other pills and cut untill i beg god or whoever to take me.
But it hasnt worked. Nothing will believe me ive tried.
Im so happy becuase today i found my friends their in my head
Is it bad to love someone so much you would inflct pain on your being to prove a point? No… No its not becuase you love that person and your willing to do absolutely anything… Anything to take away the pain anything to take away her tears…. But… She still cries becuase her mom said some things to her that cant be un-said….. Out of anger and furiousness the wrath of her is too unbearable so she cries to you but your sitting here cutting at your fore arms and wrists just hoping the pain your enduring would make it all end.
Letters of the suicided
Cut across the viens of tourcher
The rules that has to follow the laws i abided by. In the dark i sit with a crazy smile and watch as i pick my life a part to little pieces stammering words into sentences like a manic.freak so you can add that to your probable cuases could turn into a thesis . Untill i pass out from blood loss abused like a substance close my heart up as my insanity releases